The gunman who killed eight people in an Omaha mall shooting "just snapped," he said in a suicide note released Friday that combines love for his friends and family with contempt for his random victims. "I know everyone will remember me as some sort of monster but please understand that I just don't want to be a burden on the ones that I care for my entire life," the 19-year-old wrote. "I just want to take a few pieces of (expletive) with me." Police released the three-page, handwritten note Friday. Hawkins left the note Wednesday at the house where he lived, before he went to the Westroads Mall and opened fire in the Von Maur store, fatally wounding eight people before taking his own life.