Living with loss

How to grieve and return to a meaningful life after the loss of a loved one.

Girls hugging 521 (photo credit: MCT)
Girls hugging 521
(photo credit: MCT)
After returning from an international conference on grief and bereavement, I received strange looks from friends when I said that the conference had been excellent. For those of us who work daily with issues surrounding loss, it was nice to have had an open forum for discussion of such a difficult subject with more than 700 colleagues from around the world. After all, bring up the topic of death with your family and friends and they bolt. No one wants to talk about serious issues, let alone death. Here, with experts in the field, we talked about ambiguous loss, complicated or prolonged bereavement, disenfranchised grief, sudden, traumatic, anticipated, unanticipated, violent and just about any other kind of death or loss imaginable. Suicide, homicide, assisted death, and last but not least, palliative and hospice care, along with advanced directives and end of life decisions. We spoke of various aspects of death in every age group from fetal to geriatric, in a parent, newborn, child, adolescent, sibling, partner, caregiver, peer or pet whether from war, fire, flood or famine.
Whether on our own or as care providers, all of us deal with loss at various times of our lives. Some are more significant than others. Some losses may be socially acknowledged, whereas others, such as from suicide, death of a pet, a miscarriage or abortion or the loss of a childhood home may not be. Whether relocation, aliya, infertility, divorce, declining memory, a physical handicap, serious illness, declining health or death, we grieve for what we’ve given up, what we have left behind, what we no longer have.
Each person grieves differently – in his own way and in his own time. The nature of the relationship will determine the impact and meaning of the loss, and there is no right way to grieve. The depth of one person’s loss and pain can’t be compared to another’s. I once worked with a sixyear- old girl who was far more upset about the death of her beloved dog than she was over her dad’s death. This little girl had spent her lifetime confiding in her dog and had rarely seen her dad, who had been away in the army.
Saying you know how someone feels is seldom helpful. Being there for someone if and when they are ready to talk is, however, a gift. Don’t just ask how you can help; try to anticipate what may be needed and do it. Grief’s journey is time-consuming and exhausting. You may become impatient with someone when you feel they should “get over it already” and “move on.” If only it were that simple. Unrealistic expectations, whether self-imposed or from others, sadly add to the already heavy burden of loss. How, for example, does one “return to normal” one week, one month or even a year after a sudden unexpected loss? Loss impacts us in every way possible. We develop physical, emotional, cognitive and behavioral signs of distress as we grieve with our entire bodies and beings. Spiritual, economic and social challenges cause us to question who we are and reevaluate how we live our lives. So one doesn’t get over a death, but rather, eventually moves on in spite of it. Lifecycle events, holidays or anniversaries make loss more acute. While we might be able to anticipate some difficult times, others will catch us by surprise and bring unexpected sadness once again.
Children grieve differently than adults do. Play and laughter are not an indication that they don’t feel the loss, and if your needs are all-consuming, your children will definitely need someone who can be there for them in their pain.
Death is a normal part of the life cycle but it often brings up unresolved issues and fears. For many, the fear of death is the fear of the unknown, dying alone or being in pain. Open discussion can alleviate much concern and enable you to face death with dignity and respect when, especially as caregivers, we give our loved ones “permission” to depart.
What can you do if you are grieving? First of all, go easy on yourself. Take it one moment, one hour, one day at a time if you have to. Maintain regular routine as much as possible, albeit acknowledging that nothing is normal. Try to eat a balanced diet, sleep or rest and exercise (nature’s antidepressant), meditate and relax with a hobby or book when possible. Keep a journal if you like to write. Spend time with loved ones who care, share and are supportive. Get outside help if you feel you are not coping as you think you should. While a therapist can’t take away your pain, she can listen non-judgmentally and be there as you face the many challenges that lie ahead.
Don’t make any major decisions in the first year after a loss. You may think that a move, for example, will ease your pain, but you may discover that at first nothing feels good. The depth and extent of your grief may surprise you. With time, you’ll know just what to do.
Death and loss bring sadness but are also accompanied by love, laughter and wonderful memories. While living in the present and enjoying what you have to the fullest, you can grow in unexpected ways, begin to heal, make meaning out of your life and find pleasure once again.
Dr. Batya L. Ludman is a licensed clinical psychologist in private practice in Ra’anana. Send correspondence to ludman@ or visit her website at Her book, Life’s Journey: Exploring Relationships, Resolving Conflicts, has an entire section devoted to bereavement and loss.